laugh if you must

so I don't know if pregnancy brain is due to all the crazy hormones surging through your body or the fact that your mind is now consumed with alllllllll the possibilities and anxieties of being pregnant. So far I've left my straightener on allllllll day, oops, thank goodness it didn't burn the house down, I am a spaz and seem to lose my train of thought before I even get it rolling, I am an anxious crazy person worrying that EVERYTHING might be affecting the growing fetus (have you ever considered perfume or face lotion as a possible harm to your fetus? well I never did before either). SUCH a freak! AND to top it off I've lay awake night after night stressing on who to choose as my provider. It's seriously stressing me out. I finally decided to go back to the dr that delivered Aiden, he was nice enough and has a good rep. It is however at the baby factory of all baby factories, St Vincents in Beaverton, a whopping hour away, when the very hospital I work at, in the birth center mind you, is a mere 15 mins. I swear, maybe its the lack of caffiene that is making me crazy but holy socks my poor husband is a saint to deal with me. Yikes. I am also super impatient and totally perseverate on wierd thoughts, which include food! I think I'll be a heifer if I can't find something to curb my appetite. Desi was laughing at me as I hopped on the eliptical just now (but had to pause to type this, hello impatient) after a 50 min walk earlier. I told him I will have to step it up or it could be frightening. Lets just sat I will have to avoid alllll fried Chinese food items when we get take out as they CALL my name until they are entirely gone. SO sad and hilarious at the same time. Anyhow. That's all for now. Just an anxious, blobbby, foolio. Now back to the eliptical, lol.